You are no longer a christian... you are back sliding against God to the sinful and horny secular side. Satan knows your weakness... Holy Water... Drinking that throat burning- stimulating Holy Spirit. Satan is going to coerce you to drink Satan's Holy Spirit from her crystal skull then Satan is going to get to commit despicable, sinful acts that are unforgivable in the eyes of God. Satan will cure you of virtue and unleash that dark sexual chaos you have been craving... The only way to wash away Jesus's tears is with cum.