Love your own cum. It's part of your body which you love to fondle and please. Go ahead its just part of masturbating. Eating your own cum is not any different then wanting to be able to suck on your own cock. Its not gay. All You haters out there need to know being gay is the desire to be with other men. Doing this does not require other men. You can satisfy yourself just by yourself. Women love a man that feel comfortable enough to do this and admit it. If women could they would too.